July 8, 2015
Has it been four months now since you passed away? And ten years that Mother’s been gone? My goodness! How time is flying! And yet, how sadness lingers.
Oh yes, I’m grieving. The finality of your leaving us has been a real blow to me. Grieving is such a mystery to me! I don’t understand it~ at times I’m just swept away by it, and I never know when it will hit me. Sometimes, Dad, the tears just come in a tidal wave ~ often in the night or the early morning hours. And then it’s over, or so I think. But then it sneaks up on me again when I’m least expecting it. But I think of you and Mother more often than ever now ~ whether I’m shedding tears or not. You’re always with me! In good times or bad, happy or sad! Which brings me to the subject of this letter!
Thank you, thank you for being a chocolate lover! Although I admit it’s been both a blessing and a curse in my life, chocolate has gotten me through some tough times! I couldn’t get by without it, and I know I owe that to you.
One of the best things about growing up in our home was that Mother kept a bowl full of Hershey’s kisses at all times, just for you! There’s no doubt that you had a strong love relationship with chocolate, in all its delectable forms. And of course, we kids were beneficiaries of that “love relationship” as well…I remember there were Hershey’s bars in every size and shape in our home, as well as Hershey’s syrup and Hershey’s cocoa…comfort food of the highest order…
As you grew older, of course, you switched from Hershey’s kisses to chocolate chip cookies…your favorites were the soft and chewy ones. You also decided, after researching the subject at length, that a large tablespoon of Hershey’s cocoa (unsweetened of course) taken daily, was very good for your health! Yep! You took it just like medicine! (I never witnessed this personally, but I wondered if you had to hold your nose.) And that’s why you so neatly cut the paper in the top of the can ~ so you could carefully measure it. It must’ve done its job ~ after all, you lived to be 90 years old!
Well, anyway, even though you’ve been gone for a few months now, you’ve been on my mind all day today. The reason? Because today I made a “Texas Sheet Cake.” I think you’d have loved it, although you might’ve said it was ‘too rich!’ Sadly, I never baked one for you, because by the time I started baking it you’d already left us to join Mother in heaven. The reason it reminded me of you, though, is because I used YOUR can of cocoa in the recipe. Both the CAKE and the FROSTING were made with generous measures of cocoa. And I want to thank you again for always stocking up on cocoa. You knew I’d need it one day, didn’t you? Thank you, Dad! I miss you. I miss Mother more than ever. Will you please give my love to everyone there for me?
Becky, This is such a sweet letter to your Dad. I know he would have appreciated you taking the time to write. I enjoyed the limited amount of time I had to know him and visit him before he passed. He was a delight to talk with and I had a good time in teasing him to get him to laugh. I think he enjoyed living where he was but just didn’t want you and your brothers to know. I believe this goes along with getting older. My Mother would treat me the same way and make me think she was not happy but then the staff would tell on her as to what she had been doing. Since I am well on my way to old age we will see if I start acting the same way, if I do you are going to have to remind me of this letter. Take care and love you lots. Friends forever. Gail
Thank you so much for reading this, Gail. Your friendship means so much, and I’m really glad you were able to get to know Dad. He did have a great sense of humor, and I know he enjoyed your visits. Thank you so much for taking the time to do so. You’re a blessing ~ to my life and many others! Love you!